Trying to Have Hope
July 27, 2019
Back in 2016, before we moved to the desert, we took a look at some different places to live, but the place where we are staying now, we saw the outside of the facility, but by the time we got there, the office was closed and we needed to go back to California. That being said, I would have never known that the place where we live now is very poorly designed for disabled people. There is a step up to get on to the sidewalk leading to the building, but that is not the biggest problem, the biggest problem is that the path is at a significant incline and it is narrow, with bushes on both sides. This is a problem because I have a medical condition where both my feet are numb and my legs are weak making it difficult to walk and keep my balance. It has been a miracle for these two plus years that I did not fall down on the path or on to the street.
It has been a miracle up until yesterday morning. I fell for the first time, attempting the hardest part which is going down the incline, as I slipped at the very part between the street and the sidewalk. I felt a combination of frustration, annoyance, and discouragement at the design of this facility, and at the physical limitation I have had with this medical condition. Honestly, I am at a spiritual state right now of feeling really discouraged. I have shared a passage with some people this week but this is also my prayer right now.
13 I pray that the God who gives hope will fill you with much joy and peace while you trust in him. Then your hope will overflow by the power of the Holy Spirit.
Father in Heaven, it is hard to trust in You and to have hope when certain things seem really difficult. I did not have a choice in the location where I am at now, and the design of the pathway is very difficult for people with disabilities. I do not know what to do, and I trust somehow, someway that You would supernaturally bring healing as You have in the past to so many people. I believe that You can still heal today. Please help me to see that You are good, that Your love is real, and please help anyone reading this to see Your goodness.