Trying to Find Hope
This week I received many prayer requests for physical healing. The ones that bother me the most are the prayer requests for very young children who are going through a tough time. I have had a physical condition for the last seven years where I struggle walking even very short distance. I really struggle recently about the goodness of God. Within the last two weeks, I fell once, and nearly fell while trying to go up an incline because my legs are very week. I am starting to read the Bible from Genesis to the end for the first time in a very long time. I came to chapter 16 of Genesis:
7 The angel of the Lord found Hagar near a spring in the desert; it was the spring that is beside the road to Shur. 8 And he said, “Hagar, slave of Sarai, where have you come from, and where are you going?”
“I’m running away from my mistress Sarai,” she answered.
9 Then the angel of the Lord told her, “Go back to your mistress and submit to her.” 10 The angel added, “I will increase your descendants so much that they will be too numerous to count.”
11 The angel of the Lord also said to her:
“You are now pregnant
and you will give birth to a son.
You shall name him Ishmael,
for the Lord has heard of your misery.
He will be a wild donkey of a man;
his hand will be against everyone
and everyone’s hand against him,
and he will live in hostility
toward all his brothers.”
13 She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.” 14 That is why the well was called Beer Lahai Roi; it is still there, between Kadesh and Bered. (genesis 16:7-14)
The fact that God sees us, He knows us, and He speaks into our lives is a very encouraging thing. I want so much to experience God’s presence, His provision in every area, including healing, but at this moment, I am struggling to believe that God is still good, I need a greater faith in who He is.
Heavenly Father, thank You that You see everything, and know our situation, and somehow in the midst of that, You ehlp us. Recently I am struggling to experience Your goodness, Your presence, and power in my life. So many people need You, and they need healing in their lives, and I am struggling to find hope. Please help me to experience Your power, Your presence more and more.